This two words really pop into my minds ...and I found that Love and Hate... is just a words...
Why do I love :
The Feelings?
Why do I hate :
The Feelings?
This can be simplify as... I hate and I love just of the feelings? Sound like too emotional...
But actually there is an option out of this which I never mention...
Which is ignore, ignore, and ignore.
For what reason I Hate and Love which can terribly obstruct the way of my life? Cause I never choose to hate a person by any reason at all, even they have done something terribly wrong to me in the past few years. When you hate the person, you will still thinking the bad things that the person done to you again and again, but when you ignore, you don't have to care about what they did...
I know I am not a good person... but I tried to be good.
I know I am not a good sportsman... but I tried to run, to exercise
I know I am not a good lover... but I tried to Love You more.
I know I am not a rich person... I will try to archieve more.
I know I have done something wrongly... I tried to correct it.
I know I have ruined my life... I tried to roll it back.
I know I have to leave, and I tried to LEAVE
Be a human is not that easy, and is not that hard... Is just depend on how we think, and how fast can we change, and what can we do...
Well, I never believe in God, I don't think HE is the one who make up my life. Cause you cannot decide what I am deciding... I have my OWN view, I know your GAME behind... If that's the way YOU want to TEST ME, give me more... I found no challenge at all...Bring IT on
Two posts in a year... I really mean that... Tanker ways.....Tanker rules^^
Sunday, February 7, 2010
Friday, February 5, 2010
Feelings....
I think I been not using this for almost 2 years. For some reasons, I created it and for reason ...I have to leave it again. So, what happen to our human Tanker today? IS him still the same? IS him keep still remember what he should do?
Well well well, perhaps this should be a long story to tell, but I try to make it shorter....
Life became more interesting after my commission as a young lieutenant, after the training and training, I though I made myself to be tougher and stronger... But what happen to me today is like totally different...
For some reasons, I becoming weak, and for reasons I lost my true smile... where am I? Can I just exit like unplugging myself just like in the Matrix? Honestly to tell is that, I am really hurt this time, and I hoped can get rid of that. Almost a month where I can't sleep in a proper way... seems like I holding it too strong this time. I try to let go and I try to leave... but what my heart tell me is another story... yet I still trying to. Perhaps leave will make the difference, to begin a new life and a new breath...
But this time I really grab the meaning... when you really love with someone... just make sure they are happy enough, because when they happy and you are. Even that they are not destined for us, just wish them the best. Not just by saying, but wholehearted. Honestly, at 1st I hated them more rather than wish, but is seems like hate doesn't make me happy either. Why don't be doing something good like what I did last time? Here , I just wishing you the best with all my heart and wishes.
Sorry for those who worry of me along the time I changed, I shifted, I depressed... I glad to have you all in my life. I promise that I will bring myself back soon. With a new breath and a new look. Just let the times to decide when will be...
With Love, Tanker
Well well well, perhaps this should be a long story to tell, but I try to make it shorter....
Life became more interesting after my commission as a young lieutenant, after the training and training, I though I made myself to be tougher and stronger... But what happen to me today is like totally different...
For some reasons, I becoming weak, and for reasons I lost my true smile... where am I? Can I just exit like unplugging myself just like in the Matrix? Honestly to tell is that, I am really hurt this time, and I hoped can get rid of that. Almost a month where I can't sleep in a proper way... seems like I holding it too strong this time. I try to let go and I try to leave... but what my heart tell me is another story... yet I still trying to. Perhaps leave will make the difference, to begin a new life and a new breath...
But this time I really grab the meaning... when you really love with someone... just make sure they are happy enough, because when they happy and you are. Even that they are not destined for us, just wish them the best. Not just by saying, but wholehearted. Honestly, at 1st I hated them more rather than wish, but is seems like hate doesn't make me happy either. Why don't be doing something good like what I did last time? Here , I just wishing you the best with all my heart and wishes.
Sorry for those who worry of me along the time I changed, I shifted, I depressed... I glad to have you all in my life. I promise that I will bring myself back soon. With a new breath and a new look. Just let the times to decide when will be...
With Love, Tanker
Monday, September 29, 2008
ROTU (Reserver Officer Training Unit) aka Palapes
Hmm..... I think this is the time for me to describe what Palapes is....
PALAPES units (Reserve Officers Training Units - ROTU) are formed at 12 universities and institutes of higher education to facilitate the recruitment of graduate officers.
Although the unit is a reserve force, but it doesn't mean any difference from the modules of training if compare with the regular army. Since, we had spent our weekdays for studying, so the only option for the training is on the weekend and the semester break.
To make sure we can cope with studies and trainings, time management skills is a MUST. Without this skills, all will become a mess. But luckily I've found a proper ways for me to manage my time in the right ways.
Basically, what will covered in my training course??
The answer is very easy......It consists of Weapon classes, Marching, Tactic Classes, Physical Training
So far the weapons that covered in my training will be show as below :
LMG a.k.a HK 11
My Core weapon M16A1
M16A1 + M203 Launcher
Our Big Daddy here, Anti Tank - Carl Gustav
Mortar 60mm
Support Fire- GPMG (General Purpose Machine Gun)
Actually the main reason that I enter this unit is because I am interested to know more about firearms and take this as a challenge. In fact,there are lot of steps that we have to keep in mind because 1 mistake can bring a disaster when handling this wrongly.This is the real firearms which is totally different as you seen on the games and TV. After I've went thru the trainings,now I can easily differentiate that a person really know to handle their weapon or not...
As a simple conclusion for today is, a good army have to master their skills on the weapon. So that they can protect our country from the enemies.
PALAPES units (Reserve Officers Training Units - ROTU) are formed at 12 universities and institutes of higher education to facilitate the recruitment of graduate officers.
Although the unit is a reserve force, but it doesn't mean any difference from the modules of training if compare with the regular army. Since, we had spent our weekdays for studying, so the only option for the training is on the weekend and the semester break.
To make sure we can cope with studies and trainings, time management skills is a MUST. Without this skills, all will become a mess. But luckily I've found a proper ways for me to manage my time in the right ways.
Basically, what will covered in my training course??
The answer is very easy......It consists of Weapon classes, Marching, Tactic Classes, Physical Training
So far the weapons that covered in my training will be show as below :
LMG a.k.a HK 11
My Core weapon M16A1
M16A1 + M203 Launcher
Our Big Daddy here, Anti Tank - Carl Gustav
Mortar 60mm
Support Fire- GPMG (General Purpose Machine Gun)
Actually the main reason that I enter this unit is because I am interested to know more about firearms and take this as a challenge. In fact,there are lot of steps that we have to keep in mind because 1 mistake can bring a disaster when handling this wrongly.This is the real firearms which is totally different as you seen on the games and TV. After I've went thru the trainings,now I can easily differentiate that a person really know to handle their weapon or not...
As a simple conclusion for today is, a good army have to master their skills on the weapon. So that they can protect our country from the enemies.
Saturday, May 3, 2008
My 1st Ever Blog
Actually, I am just started to use blogger.So I found that I still need time to learn more on it.
The reason that I suddenly joining this is beause of my friends,and I hoped that this can become a new place for me to write down some of my feelings instead of just usings friendster.
I took about 2 hours to understand how the system work.Although this is time consuming,but I still try my best to understand it better.Before that,some of my friends using this to hack,but that's is not applicable for me this time , hehe ^_^
The reason that I suddenly joining this is beause of my friends,and I hoped that this can become a new place for me to write down some of my feelings instead of just usings friendster.
I took about 2 hours to understand how the system work.Although this is time consuming,but I still try my best to understand it better.Before that,some of my friends using this to hack,but that's is not applicable for me this time , hehe ^_^
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